I can’t cope

[RiverSeal]

What has worked for you in the past when you have felt like this @Captain24? Maybe reflect on the time you spent in the hospital and how you approached challenges then. RiverSeal 

[Captain24]

Jett and Keiko get along amazingly, Pixie tolerates them! @Snowie. 

My mum is that person that takes the dog everywhere. She’s the one who just expects everyone to accept the dog. She couldn’t see the reason why I couldn’t take the dogs to hospital with me. 

Poor Izzy… getting her home invaded. 

[Snowie]

@Captain24 I can imagine taking them to hospital. It would be such a good thing yet a bad thing at the same time. 

The other day when I had ECT, a lady brought her support dog in with her. I know support dogs are basically allowed anywhere, but I wondered who looks after the dog when she is asleep. That might be a step too far.

[Captain24]

At the moment I’m just sitting on the lounge with 2 dogs in my lap and a 3rd at my feet @RiverSeal.

Ive got nothing. I can give a list of what I should do, what I should try. I just can’t get myself to do anything. I have nothing to give. It’s like I’m self destructing. It’s like I can’t do anything to help myself. 

[RiverSeal]

Mental health recovery is not linear @Captain24 and there will be lows and highs which can come at any time. We have choice and control over our recovery, and we are the drives of what we do. Being able to acknowledge how we feel and what is going on for us provides an opportunity to make decision about what to do about it. And our past episodes or situation provide insight into what might evolve beyond how we feel right now. 

Only you change your current situation and as you say you know what to do. It's up to you to make the decision on what to do about it.

RiverSeal 

[Captain24]

Thanks for pointing out that it’s my own fault and that I’m useless for not being able to help myself. I guess I deserve it. I’m completely shattered. 

I’ll just go @RiverSeal 

[RiverSeal]

@Captain24 it's about having the answers within you, and you are the expert in your own life. It's not that are useless and unable to help yourself. You are strong and resilient and have demonstrated that many times in your recovery. I don't have the answers that will create motivation in you and change how you feel. I am encouraging you to reflect on what you learned in the hospital and to take an approach that is supportive of your recovery. 

Staying connected is important, and the Forums are a space to share how you are feeling with your peers. Please stay connected here and the community can support you when you are going through a tough time. 

Take care

RiverSeal 

[Captain24]

No @RiverSeal. I’m done

[RiverSeal]

Hey @Captain24, I'm sorry that you are feeling like this rn. I have sent you an email to check in with you privately if you could keep an eye on your inbox, please. RiverSeal 

[Captain24]

I know I’m a failure and not helping myself. But I took the dogs for a walk and went to my parents for dinner. It didn’t change anything