My Mosaic

[Bow]

You back into the swing of things after some much needed time off @tyme?

im a little…. no a lot unsettled tonight doesn’t feel nice

[tyme]

LOL "time off"? What are you talking about? I feel like I've been running a marathon! It's go go go go. As soon as I have a minute spare, I fill it with all the things I've been wanting to do @Bow .

I hope to have a bit of a sleep into tomorrow? I'll let you know how it goes. 

At the moment, I'm preparing for an overseas trip which I'll tell you and others about when I get back. I'm leaving in 3 weeks and I have a lot to prepare. I'll be going for 2 weeks. 

Also, there's still a lot of exciting things happening at SANE. We will launch our Veteran's space on ANZAC day (so we've been doing the last miunte testing with that). Then we will be working on a re-launch of Yarning Space. Annnnnndddd..... all the other projects along the way.

It's certainly not a 'boring' job! 

Yikes! I can't believe the time already!

Do you have any plans for tomorrow? Also, is D on holidays yet? The kids here go back to school on Tues (after Easter Mon)

[Bow]

@Jynx  I got turtle chips today. Had just one to taste. They are very tasty. Tried to get D to try. Nope. They look gross 🤦🏼‍♀️

seen my psych this morning. Stupid bow. Can’t do anything right. Just wasting everyone’s time. She asked how I was… yep good thanks. No bow. You’re not good. Not even ok. Can’t even answer that simple question right. Gave her the dissociation questionnaire she gave me last session. All crumpled up and dirty, been sitting in bag a fortnight and I quickly filled it in this morning. 
‘Was there anything you wanted to focus on today ?’ Lotsa silence. I really could not think! Felt weird. Different. Was like looking into a deep dark abyse and there being absolutely nothing there. Nope I said. ‘What’s the last fortnight been like then?’ Pretty much a lot of the same I told her and then she wanted to know what that looked like!?? Argh. The same stuff. You know. Urgh. I couldn’t even find words for that. I eventually told her about all my appointments, tests, moving and packing. We eventually some how talked a little about goal setting over the coming months until June when she goes on leave for a bit. I just want things to be different. None of all the SI and SH and all the spiraling over sometimes small stupid things. 

Then we focus on yesterday’s spiral. From when I walked in the door, being asked all the questions, needing my attention straight away, the self talk, what happened on here. And talking about where I could have possible intervened to slow/stop the spiral. 

So yep, I failed again. I let her walk all over me. I can’t be honest with her. 

My SW was away today, she’s not back til Tuesday. She organised for another lady to meet me at health and wait with me before my appointment. She just sat there. Really needed the distraction, but she didn’t say anything. 

I got my helix, tragus and daith put back in after my appointment. Went to the piercing place at the shops. Shops were mad. People need to chill.. shops only closed for one day! I got my Easter shopping done though. Matching pjs for D and I! 

And as soon as I walked in the door I get bombarded again @Jynx !! Like for frig sake. I’ve just had a psych appointment and been to the shops. Let me breathe! Urgh 

[tyme]

Hey @Bow ,

I'll let Jynx reply to your post above, but I wanted to pop in to ask about turtle chips. Are they those asian (Korean?) chips?

What's special about them to make you buy them? I'm intrigued. Someone I knew showed them to me a few weeks ago, and I'm thinking, What is that????

I'm intrigued!

Hugs @Bow 

[Bow]

Hey @tyme 

 @Jynx told me about the turtle chips recently and said they were really good, so wanted to try them. I don’t know if they are Korean or anything. The ones I got today are chocolate churros. They have heaps of layers and super crunchy. 

[tyme]

Oh, I might be talking about something else. I'll do a search lol because I'm so curious.

Yes! This is the one I saw: 

Where do you buy them from? 

[Bow]

That’s them @tyme  i think there were 3 savory flavors and this one chocolate one 

 

[tyme]

Oh! So you can buy them from regular stores, not necessarily a specialty shop @Bow 

I'll keep my eyes open for them next time.

[Jynx]

Allo @Bow!! I'm slow today, been working on other stuff hehe
I am writing up a reply! Just wanted to let you know I'd read ya post 😉

[Jynx]

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@tyme wrote:

Oh! So you can buy them from regular stores, not necessarily a specialty shop @Bow 

I'll keep my eyes open for them next time.

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Woolies!! And yeah must be same brand but I've only ever had the choc churro ones, and legit don't feel the need to try any other 🤣

@Bow wrote:

@Jynx  I got turtle chips today. Had just one to taste. They are very tasty. Tried to get D to try. Nope. They look gross 🤦🏼‍♀️

Hahaha oh she's gonna regret that when she finds out how delicious they are 😅

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@Bow wrote:

So yep, I failed again. I let her walk all over me. I can’t be honest with her. 

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Just your gentle reminder that when we are in survival-mode, our ability to stand up for ourselves and be firm with our needs can be like... basically nonexistent. 

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@Bow wrote:

And as soon as I walked in the door I get bombarded again @Jynx !! Like for frig sake. I’ve just had a psych appointment and been to the shops. Let me breathe! Urgh 

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Oh noooo who is bombarding you now? I hope you've gotten some time to yourself? 

Matching PJs sounds SO cute omg